I guess I may have been dishing out some hard truths lately.
I would say “some not,” but… I guess it takes a certain amount of self-containment to tell the truth at all.
As a grade-A coward, I know. Telling the truth is always intentional.
So if I said telling the truth wasn’t intentional… when I know how hurtful it can be to hear… I would be lying.
Because I never want to cause anyone pain, and when I choose to take the risk, I know the risk I am taking keenly.
And in the moment I choose a truth or a lie,
I accept the consequences wholey.
As a diviner, I feel it is my duty to hold the space for a client (or querent) to receive a message they may not appreciate hearing. The way I divine must be safe for them, so that the divination may have the most beneficial effect– even if it is unpleasant at the time.
Whether or not the client uses the information given is not my responsibility. Nor are a querent’s actions or choices a reflection on my worth as a diviner.
It is important to me to make sure, during a reading, that a querent is safe to express any feelings they have– while taking none of these feelings personally.
Because I am a flawed, inexact, and limited human being– I must also make space for my own boundaries when, and where, my ability to hold space ends….
It is a delicate balance that I must adapt to in the moment.
In the end, I follow my feelings in faith that my intuitive sense knows what is the most right I can do.
I laugh, writing this.
I don’t want to dish out what I cannot take back!
So I am testing myself in my ability to take my own harsh truths with the following reading…
And before I even begin to pull cards, I ask in my mind,
“What is the hardest truth for me to accept?”
An immediate internal-external response blows away all of my unstable shambles of confidence:
“You are worthy.”
“Worthy?” I think, “Sounds fake, but okay…”
I wonder if this is my ego… Some poor rambling fool trying to feel important… But the response I hear immediately, again, chastises me. I rush to my computer and try to get it all down:
“It is a right within you to live as you are able, including your triumphs, successes, and legacy gained. It it your right to move forward with your progress– in grateful service to the divine and the All That Is…
“All will come in time that you look for. Seek not to gain, but to triumph in the glory of spreading light farther and father, reaching out across the distance and the gaps, only to realize there are no gaps at all and the whole of everything we are is One…
“There is a reason your skills are needed at this time, in the place you are, you are an inexplicably perfect unique quality capable of performing the task you are given by the divine. And this goes for all [people]… You are a facet of a perfect being that is always harmoniously renewing itself inside and around us all, with faith and perserverance, in the ever unfolding tide of time and matter– unending, always cycling, forward, forward, and endlessly conjoining into an infinite whole of truth and prosperity and effervescence in sublime (subliminally) perfect union of everything…”
I want to bow my head in shame… or humility at these words…
“There is no shame! There is no humility! We are One. There is no NEED for shame.”
I’m… coming out of my trance and laughing because he sounds… SO ANNOYED, haha!
So remember that– you, with me– We.
There is no need for shame, nor humility, in the expression of your gifts– the expression of your spirit.
You are put on this earth with a beautiful and unique purpose, function, and grace– which you perform admirably simply by being.
And the world will stop.
And breathe again.
Of The Heart Road.
P.S. (more “hard truths”)
“Your teeth need to be brushed.”
“Your heart needs to open even more for you to love Loki. No matter how afraid you are that he will hurt you again. He will not.”
“Sometimes…. People don’t like to be told they are wrong. *laughter* Not even you– you don’t like to be told that you are wrong– or that you are right!”
“Set loves you.”
Who is this?
Is this Osiris?
They’re not going to tell me.
It was Osiris, Odin, AND Loki.